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Jesus came to save that which was lost

The question is, do you know what you have lost? Have you like me settled for what is? Yesterday in the stress of coming home, getting ready, and (for me) getting ready for a trans-continental trip. Tempers flared as the kids acted up testing our patience and our love.  After a long silence I found Angelina in the study staring at our wedding photos.

I don’t like it when Mommy is angry, she says. I wish she was like that, she points at the wedding photos, always happy, she was so beautiful.

Oh man, I look at the pictures of the young couple so young, so in love. Almost tangible electrical passion passing between the two. Who are they? I quickly correct myself, where are they now? How did we loose that?

Then I remember that Jesus came to save that which was lost and a wild and a little bit crazy hope flares in my heart. maybe that can be true for us… Maybe it can be true for you…

That's what it means to have Jesus in your heart

Today we had the last training with our bullyproof group. It has been a great term and we have seen some of the kids grow tremendously in confidence and prowess.

We had the pleasure of grading four students (which means that we put a black stripe on their white belts to signify progress.) Both Anja and Angelina got their first stripe.

After the grading we had a short elephant rumble (which is a playful sumo wrestling challenge) in which all the students participated. There where wins, cheers, losses and tears.

As we where changing clothes later Anja said:

At first I got sad when I lost but then my heart said “come on, you can do it”. She looks at me and says, no it wasn’t my heart it was Jesus. He said “come on, you can do it”, and I did! that’s what it means to have Jesus in your heart.

God and the art of building snowmen

Linen splattered snowmanphoto © 2008 Lauren Manning | more info (via: Wylio)
I am rolling the snow ball in the thickest layer of powder snow, it should be growing and becoming a large round body for our snowman.

I have no idea why it’s not growing, I mutter mostly to my self.

Ask God, Angelina shouts, I always do, I ask him to help me every time I need it to grow. She looks at me quizzically, What? She asks, then she says, these are not my hands they are Gods hands. He lives inside of us so these are Gods hands and He is building this snowman.

I listen dumbstruck to the wisdom of my daughter. If I where only that wise.

Starting Bullyproof


So last week I started training Gracie Jiu-jitsu with my girls. Anja is four and Angelina is six years old (Angelina has been cheating by doing a term of Judo first).

I signed the girls up at Graciekids and started with the first free sample lesson from the gracie games (crazy horse) and the girls loved it. And after listening to the parent preparation course I am sold on this system.

The gracie brothers contend that if you play the gracie games with your kids, and if you expect nothing but praise everything, then your kids will fall in love with jiu-jitsu. So after having done just two sessions, one with crazy horse and then introducing them to spider kid, they are completely hooked. The girls are asking now every day. Dad…. can we play jiu-jitsu? So they are loving it! Me, oh, I am loving it too! First of all I love Jiu-Jitsu, second of all, I love that the girls wanna play a game that I like. But it doesn’t end there…

Here comes my secret, I am learning so much about jiu-jitsu playing these games. That’s right I am LEARNING Gracie Jiu-Jitsu by playing games with my kids. It doesn’t get better than this.

A day on the beach

Angelina flying a kiteToday we went to Brighton. It was a day out with Southwark corps and after a bit of confusion regarding buses (and no trains running out of Denmark Hill) we ended up taking the train from Victoria to Brighton.

Brighton pier was just beautiful and alltough it was rather cold and really windy it was nice to spend a day on the beach with food and friends.

Angelina and Anja went on the merry-go-round and truly enjoyed a day out in the fresh sea air. We also got to walk around Brighton and see something very different than London for once.We also managed to fit in a visit to Wesley Owens.

All in all it was a brilliant day out and we all loved it.

A good day!

Today has been a good day. I started out early going to Saint Michaels. We spent seven hours doing talks on the Salvation army and chatting with the kids at the school. It was great. One of my favourite moments was when one of the boys after a really serious discussion on gang violence and gang culture asked “Do you watch Spungebob squarepants?” Naturally many serious questions was asked as well and we talked alot about Jesus and the transforming power of God.

Breakdancers at Elephant & CastleAngelina and Anja couldn’t wait to tell me about their day when I came back, they had been to the London aquarium and they had seen sharks, fishes and crabs (snap, snap).
After a good dinner and trying to have a short nap on the couch (it is hard to sleep with two wild girls bouncing on your head) I went back for a prayer evening at Southwark. On my way back I saw some break dancers doing their thing at the Elephant & Castle. I was struck with the grace and speed these dancers was moving. They where just a bunch of friends hanging out doing incredible stunts with their bodies, not showing off but truly enjoying what their bodies where capable of. For me it was awesome testament of God’s marvellous creation. I wish that every Christian could enjoy worship in the same way on a Sunday morning.

And Angelina said that it was good.

Angelina walks in to our bathroom yesterday morning asking,

What are you doing?


(confused stare from Angelina)

I am taking off the hair from my face, I say

Angelina nods gravely and says, It is good!

There are so many things I want to write, so many things happening with us. College challenges us in so many ways and if you have the time and inclination pray for us!

  • Pray that we find a way to organize our time effectively
  • Pray that we won’t break under the pressure.
  • Pray that we can reconstruct our faith after it has been deconstructed
  • Pray that we don’t loose our zeal.
  • Pray hat we do not become sausages!


First things first.. An appology to all of those of you who are waiting for me to respond to emails facebook requests etc… I am still not fully connected, wich means that I acan steal a few minutes every few days to actually sit at a machine connected to the Internet.

We have started College! It is a different world in so many sensed that both Hanna and I are overwhelmed with the cultural change as well as the transition in lifestyle and vocation. For Hanna it means no longer being a full time stay at home mother, for me it means no longer being in charge of a full time ministry.

Our welcome weekend was powerful and though the meetings where long and sometimes a bit to traditional for our taste the Holy Spirit was there powerfully and both friends and family where touched by the spirit and took steps forward in their spiritual lifes (keep a close eye on Graeme and Zoes blogs) . At the Saturday night meeting the Spirit came down powerfully as we sang “In the potters hands” and I could feel the gravity of the step we have taken.

Angelina and Anja have had their first encounters with nursery (They love it) and their first colds. Anja is repeating every word we say and will no doubt be talking really soon.

We had our first classes and handed in our first thological essay, haven’t gotten it back yet so I can’t say how it went we where all (the whole session with a few exceptions) pretty shook up by the experience though. The lectures vary greatly in level, depth and pace so it has been hard to get a sense of what the studies wil be like. The tutors keep reminding us of how high the level is at times and then reassure us that we will have no problems handling it at other times adding to the confusion.

We have with OT (Genesis & Flood) and NT this week and it is hard work to keep your ead screwed on tight when we start withBible critical analysis where parts of the faith you have taken for granted is pulled out from unerneath you in every other sentence of the tutor.

Last night we had the first SSG/WSD session with 15 people attending, it was a good class where we covered basic unarmed posta and did a few of the WSD abracare drills. It seems most of the participants enjoyed it but I guess we will find out for sure next week when we see who will come back for more. For me personally it was great to hold the training just to hold on to a little bit of the BC1 Patrik.

It seems though that we are forever cursed when it comes to technology, the moving company broke two computers in the move, my lap top (bought especially for these two years) broke before we left and now after four tries to fix it the computer store has given up and offer us a replacement machine for the meager price of £200 which we don’t have. As well as this our TV-Receiver also bought just for our time here broke so we have no TV and no Internet. Officially cut of from the real world.

It is a surreal world here and my brother Hampus, if he ever comes and visits (hint, hint) will notice that it just like our apartment in Riga will be like stepping through the closet to Narnia, so great is the difference between the campus and the surrounding world.

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T minus 5 days and counting

PICT3021So I missed to write yesterday ….. Well yesterday was a big day for Angelina. For the first time ever she went in to the sea and let go of her footing, she had inflatable arm rings and a Mickey Mouse lifesaver and she let go with her feet. I said Angelina look at you you are swimming. She said No, no Flying! Childhood is fantastic, a miracle around every corner and an adventure every minute, that is the way we all should live life.

The weather is to hot to mention and so humid you can hardly breathe. My only wish would be that I wasn’t injured so I could take the car and drive us far away from all the tourists and stuff and then run and jump around and play with Angelina and Anja instead of feebly hobbeling around.

Ah well, time to bed down and pray for rain tomorrow ….

T minus 8 days and counting

Today we went shopping in the morning and bought a DivX enabled DVD player for our room here in Croatia. We decided to take it easy today and not go to the beach. So we stayed in the house in the afternoon. I got some time in on the training cycle and we got some rest.

Angelina, who has a hard time learning how rough she can play with her sister, managed to run into Anja full speed knocking her head in the balcony railing and chipping one of Anjas front teeth. Now Anjas million dollar smile has become a million dollar smile with character.

It strikes me how frail we are, i spend ten minutes playing with daggers with a friend and now one month later, I still can’t walk down a flight of stairs. Angelina and Anja spend a minute on the balcony and now Anja has a chipped tooth for the next six years. It takes so little. It is such a miracle that I am still in one piece that we all are. Praise God for all the near misses and all the bullets I have dodged throughout my childhood and teenage years.

College? What’s that?

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