Jesus in drag

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Why are you doing this? Why do you take such an interest in the LGBTQ and sexuality? The question has been asked of me many times. By my leaders, by the people in my congregation and by my family. In fact I think it was my brother who asked the million dollar question one day just after I had come out with my LGBTQ and the church series: “How many LGBTQ people do you have in your church?”

The truth is that I somehow knew that this was an issue that we had to deal with. Already at our Officers training (like seminary but for Salvation Army Officers) I started asking the questions. How are we to deal with the LGBTQ community? It seemed no one was particularly interested in even broaching the subject and the ones that did either did so with a love the sinner hate the sin attitude and some even sneered at me “Why should we talk about this, it’s not like they will join your church, and why would they want to join a club where they are not welcome?”

After receiving my orders and moving to Malmö it took one week before I was caught like a deer in the headlights of an oncoming truck: “What if two men asks you to marry them what would you say?” This, asked by a group of teenagers hanging about outside during the Malmö festival. I had no coherent or thought through answer, I believe I stumbled through some kind of: It’s complicated kind of response.

I realised I had to get my theology straight I had to reconcile what I knew in my heart to be true and how I read the bible. It was fishing for help in these issues that I stumbled into Tim. We met in the chatroom connected to Doug Paggit’s radio show, I do not remember how the conversation started but I do remember how it ended. Tim asked me if I wanted to talk about this over Skype and I answered that I would love to, it seemed it was hard to get anyone to actually have a constructive conversation about this that wasn’t just regurgitating old evangelical sound bytes.

The conversation with Tim was great, the fact that he didn’t try to convince me of anything helped. Not once did he try to say: “This is how you should read scripture.” He simply directed me to some great resources (Andrew Marin: Love Is an Orientation among others). But then he shared story after story about how he had encountered deep spirituality and loving worship within the LGBTQ community, this I think was important for me to hear as a recovering pentecostal fundamentalist. But nothing could have really prepared me for the shocking turn the conversation took next.

After having to swear on the record that I wouldn’t be recording our conversation Timothy told me about his project. How he also had found himself on a lonely desert journey and had decided that he once and for all had to deal with the inner Pharisee. That he had done this by coming out as gay (even though he was straight) to his friends, family and church. Here are his words about it:

The thing that truly astonished me with Tim’s story was that he was willing to literally walk a mile/a year in the shoes of the other (please learn more about Tim’s experiment and support his indiegogo campaign) . It is this uncomfortable truth that seems to trip me up wherever I go in my spiritual walk like a pair of shoes carelessly kicked of on the hallway carpet (always tripping you up on the way to the restroom). I am committed to work day and night for the human rights of others but am I willing to walk in their shoes and more importantly am I willing to know their pain. Not just know of their pain but to actually feel it?

I recently stumbled onto this disturbing quote from Jim Palmer‘s Divine Nobodies:

“I uncovered something unsettling about myself. I don’t really want a “relationship” with God. Here’s what I want. I want to share with God all I feel, all I need, all that grieves me, all that makes me happy, the puzzling things, the fun things, and the hard things, but I would prefer that God keep his stuff to himself. I don’t want to hear about his pain and share in his grief.”

That rings so true with me, I really want a shoulder to cry on but am I willing to bear the burden of the other, and am I willing to bear the burden of God?

Are you? Would you be willing to undergo persecution, ridicule just to know others? Would you walk the valley of death not for your own sake but just to know the other, to love them and maybe to realise that the other is not so different than yourself? If you won’t take it from me, please read more about Tim’s experiment and let it challenge you.

My conversation with Tim was, for me the first real step of this journey. I had been planning it for some time, checking out the catalogues, admiring the post cards, packing the bag but now I was ready to walk the walk inspired by Tim’s courage!

 

 

  • http://www.indiegogo.com/timothykurek Timothy Kurek

    I am beyond humbled by this blog, and so thankful to call you friend! It has been a long journey but we are on this race for the high calling together and I am stoked about that! To love our neighbors as ourselves, that is what this is about. Thank you for this my friend!

  • Graeme Randall

    I REALLY like this blog series. It heartens me to know end to know that there are people even in The Salvation Army who are willing to question and think things through like this. As I've said before – maybe one day as a result of your questioning, I'll be able to return to the ranks. Until then, I'll fight the only way I can – by supporting people and fighting in different fields, and researching etc.

    Tim's story remind's me of a book we had to read in High School (many years ago in the '80's) called 'Black Like Me' by John Howard Griffin in 1961. It was disturbing, and there were parts of the experiment that didn't sit well with me – but it had a powerful impact in ultimately turning the tide in the fight for Black Rights. Perhaps Tim's book will have a similar effect on Gay Rights for people like me. What disturbed me about Griffin's experiment was that he only spent a year in the life of a black person. He didn't grow up being hated in his formative years, he wasn't taught to hate himself in his formative years. He didn't have his rights as a human being denied him his whole life. He wasn't denied jobs his whole life because of who he was. All of this has such a powerful impact on a person that no words or any amount of Psychological writing could ever convey. As well, Griffin knew that it would come to an end. At the end of his year, he would return to being a white person. Even still, it had a powerful affect in securing black rights.

    Tim's experiment has already garnered wide-spread condemnation from conservatives and evangelicals alike (see the 'Christian Post' for it's article in response to Tim's experiment). Many are suggesting he is not nor ever was a Christian, because no Christian would ever undertake such an 'evil' endeavour (you can imagine all the other vitriolic comments they are making). I think it will be a powerful tool in the fight for gay rights though.

    It is one book I will try to get hold of. I rarely buy any books nowadays as I can't afford much luxuries on my tight budget, but this is one book I am interested in getting.

    Yours in Christ,
    Graeme Randall
    Former Officer from Australia East, now living in London.

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