At two o’clock today we will commence our appointments consultation.
Trying to be prepared is very hard as we do not know what to prepare for, so if you have the time, pray for us on this very important day.
I have woken up every half hour through the night and Hanna has unfortunately contracted a stomach bug of some kind and has been very ill.
But today we need our top form no matter how we feel. Pray that we will be surrounded and filled by God’s peace and that he will give us the wisdom to ask all the right questions.
Here we go!
Tomorrow is the day when we find out what the Salvation Army has planned for our future. People keep asking me if I have figured out where we are going (like there where only one or two possible choices). But at last glance in the dispo there where about 160 corps to choose from and 1 third of those unofficered.
With the major reorganisation of the Swedish Territory going on it becomes even harder to figure out where we are going, we are have contemplated several different methods of divination but as we do much reflection in college I thought maybe I should give the mirror a try.
I have the theme tune of mission impossible playing in my mind constantly, and have all sorts of bizarre scenarios of what Saturdays consultation will be like.
Most of them have some sort of feel of Mission Impossible or any other secret agent movie.
I am reminded of the chapter in Brian Mclaren’s The Secret Message of Jesus where he talks about us being agents of Gods Kingdom.
I can totally see that.
And lets face it who haven’t dreamt of being a secret super agent at one time or another?
So having spent nearly two years being told that we are going to be told where to go, we are now given a consultation where we have to reply to our appointment.
It is a scary thing to be responsable for such a big decision especially after you have been lulled into the false security that someone else will do it for you. However this responsability is what we have been asking for since we first considered officership, now that it is given to us, I am not sure I want it.
Nevertheless it is now time to grow up and leave the nest….
Trying to put my mind on essays is very hard right now as all I can think of is the upcoming appointment on Saturday.
So I try to distract myself in any way I can. Enter Multiwinia.
It is mindless stick-man slaughter, but in the age of post-modernism one has to ask what about stick-man rights…..
Just hoping this is not how we will feel about our appointment…
Pa-tience ['pā sh ens]
1. The capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble or suffering without getting angry or upset.
2. chiefly British term for solitaire
As we are still waiting to find out about where we are going to be posted we find ourselves living in the twilight zone. It is a place where everyone else have shifted gear and are moving towards a goal but we are still treading water.
We pray for patience!
We have started 24-7-5 prayer here at WBC which means 24/7 prayer on 5 continents by the Salvation Army Cadets and colleges.
I had my second session in the prayer room last night and just as the first session the hour flew by like no time at all. It was like I hadn’t prayed for years. Something came over me and I ended up just shouting out the prayers and boldly proclaiming God’s victory. I also prayed some foolish prayers for our future ministry like “send me the ones no one else wants”, I know they where prayers inspired by God, but I also know I will come to wish I hadn’t.
Today I fear I will lose my voice. Maybe it is for the best, since I tend to get into trouble when I open my mouth….
So this is Christmas….. Christmas music pouring out of my speakers, christmas lights appearing in window after window around us and Advent koinonia at the college. One thousand and one sermons about waiting. It seems that no matter how old we all get, we are all holding our breath until Christmas eve (well Christmas day for all of you non Scandinavians).
It seems like waiting on God is the thing to do, so collectively we sit down silently and twiddle our thumbs (for about 10 minutes until we are so bored that we have to get up and do something). Today in Spiritual formation we where treated to a video that had us just sit and wait. There was a lot of giggling and people’s embarrassed looks as they where trying to figure out if the multimedia was malfunctioning or if we where really supposed to look at a black screen.
Before I say anything else I want to point out that I DO believe that we need to slow down, I do believe that God is a 3 mph God and not a 60 mph Mtv God. However I also believe that waiting is so much more than sitting silently anticipating God’s next move.
When I was a whole lot younger and impatient (being just slightly less impatient now) my good friend and mentor Mr. Brown asked me this question: “Patrik, what does a waiter do?” and after my lame reply: “waiting” he explained to me how waiting is a verb, something you do actively, not unlike a waiter in a restaurant whose only concern it is to make sure that the one he is waiting on is completely content, being ready to fulfill any of his desires.
Waiting is a posture of the heart, wearing your towel, ready to serve the Lord. To please him and make sure that he is completely cared for, we do this in worship, in loving words and by listening carefully for any clues to our masters wishes, trying to anticipate and provide his every need before it is spoken. Not out of duty like a servant who is paid but out of love like a servant set free who chooses to remain at his masters feet out of loyalty and love. or more like a lover who’s only desire is to please his beloved.
This advent let’s WAIT upon the Lord!
I was told last week that the “iPod Generation” consists of people ages 18-34. This disqualifies me since i turned 35 last wekk. What am I to do then when my wonderful wife bought me a brand new iPod nano, a red one?
Well I guess the least I can do is make a cartoon, it was more than a while ago I released my last cartoon.
I obviously also need to run around college screaming my head of because I have my iPod at last!
As time marches on we struggle to meet deadlines on essays and collectaneas and other assignments. If we are not working on an assignment then we are preparing a sermon or a meeting plan.
The assignments range widely between biblical studies, pastoral care and mission studies. Because of the difference in subject the styles of the essays differ greatly. And for us who have never written any work at this level (and doing it in a second, or in Hanna’s case, third language) It is really hard to differ between a critical evaluation, personal reflection or a theological reflection.
The last two weeks have been the most pressured since we got to WBC and that is saying a lot. To add to our workload we will be organizing Easter at Woking.
As placements go we have been extremely fortunate.
We had a fantastic time during our social placement at Springfield Lodge. Our Sunday placements are going well at Lewisham and we have been asked to do our summer placement at Southwark corps here in London. The next placement apart from Easter at Woking is going to be our corps placement in Catford. Please pray for us so that we can get as much out of this even though we will have to juggle the children between usfor the week.